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Nine Years Ago

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

My first born would be nine years old today. I have come a long way from the broken young woman that didn't think I would be able to get out of bed ever again. I have even come a long way from the brokenness I still felt when I first wrote about Faith's birthday on this blog. I will always wish that she was here with us. That Rori had a big sister to share her room with, that I had two girls to grow up together, that Rori would have a best friend the way I have a best friend. However, this year, I can really say that God and time have healed my wounds. I am thankful. I am blessed.

I am thankful that I got to hold my sweet Faith, not just in my womb, but also in my arms, and forever in my heart. I am thankful that my family all held her and most importantly held me. Held me in their arms, and in their prayers. I am blessed whenever someone refers to her by name, reminds me they know her life was precious. I am blessed when my friends share stories of their losses. Blessed because we know and have experienced grief, but because of Him, we also know hope beyond measure. I am blessed because I can go back and read every email, card, and letter I received. I am not sure that I have ever felt so loved, or covered in prayer by the Body of Christ. So, my darling Faith, may you know that you are celebrated today, you are never forgotten, you hold a special place in my heart, and I look forward to the day where I may hold you and not ever have to let go.


Somebody asked me about reading her previous birthdays, you may find them here, here, here, and here

6 comments:

Ashley Grace said...

Loving and praying for you today. I wonder if your sweet girl up in Heaven knows that you write about her so beautifully. I bet she does.

Jane said...

Hugs Jaime. Although God allows time to dull our pain, I know it truly never goes away. Prayers and love to you dear. xo - Jane

Karen Joy said...

Love you, Friend. Thinking of you and Faith today - thanks for sharing ALL of yourself so openly. You are a blessing to me!!!

Anonymous said...

Happy B-day my sweet little girl!--Papa

Leslie Shogren said...

You have such a gift for writing. This made my cry. I wish I had known you back then. Thanks for sharing Faith with me through your memories. It made me think of that song "You make beautiful things out of the dust, You make beautiful things, You make beautiful things out of us." Love you!

Jenna said...

Love you Jaimers- I tried posting on the day you wrote this, but blogger locked me out because someone tried to hack my account-and now I can finally access it.